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Thursday, 10 May 2012

  • This Marks The End

    Just four years ago, I was being the typical stupid HS student showing off about graduating and going to college.

     

    Now I'm done O_O"

    Not sure.

    Feels exciting actually... 'cause college is exhausting :) especially when it feels like a lot of the ppl don't like you. 

    I'm not even concerned about finding a FT job anymore. After the whole senior year, I feel like what's important to me right now is to do things that I enjoy. 
    HS was stressful at that time, but I always had time to do something I like (band/sing/dance/play some instrument/draw/etc).

     

     

     

     

    ... and this is if I pass Thesis... which I won't know yet until probably grad. LOL 

Saturday, 05 May 2012

  • The most awkward moment

    I experience (or at least one of them in case I remember some more awkward things later), is when a newly trained instructor, or an instructor with less experience than me tells me what is right/wrong to do, or tries to talk over me when I try to teach a class a certain way. 

    Excuse me, but I think you have our roles messed up. I was assigned to be the TA, but that was because I had to LOOK AFTER YOU and TEACH YOU. Ha. 
    :P It's even more weird when I try not to be mean by saying things like that, and say "actually, don't you think we should do this?" ... lol and then the question of "so how long have you been working here?" comes, and they give me the embarrassment-toned "oh" when I said about 5 years (most people that end up in these situations were of one or two years). 

    I've also come to notice that besides Manhattan, other locations have devoted a person to yell "TIME'S UP" every time we need to switch classes. 
    Ugh I hate that! Maybe I am spoiled because I got to control my own class and when they can go in Manhattan (they yell out "time's up" too, but students always wait for the instructor's call to know when to go home). But wth! Without warning, all the kids start leaving in the middle of swimming an assignment I gave them =_=" And then I am expected to give them homework, but they leave without even telling me! So how am I supposed to do that :T! Grrr~ 
    Even worse =_=" One of the newbie instructors were like "are you new here? that's how it is." HELL NO. I am FAR from new, and I like to manage my class and actually give them something to WORK ON instead of going with the "ok work's over. time to get out ASAP" kind of attitude =_= 

    Also need to discuss the sidestroke arm structure with someone ASAP. And sidekicking structure. I'm getting SO tired of seeing students with BS skills because instructors don't know how to teach them.

Monday, 30 April 2012

  • The Finale

    Finals week for this week and the next, and I'll be done. 

    Looking forward:

    Week long South Dakota trip
    Finding a job
    Break from being afraid of classes/professors XD
    Pictures from NYRP (they're about to install the designs I made for them for wetland restoration!! :D)
    Backyard + Frontyard makeover :D
    Maybe starting a food blog: first recipe = dimsum :D
    Continue with learning songs on piano
    Seek guitar lessons if friend stays!  

Sunday, 22 April 2012

  • WHOO!

    Played handball today! It was just one game, but yay! It was nice being able to let out some energy. It was exactly what I needed. I was planning to go swimming or do some yoga at home, but we happened to go out to the park today and there was an open court ^_^ whoo! 

    Only downside is that i might've hurt my finger somehow... hurts whenever i use or move it too much ><" Hopefully it's just a little bruise. 

    Gonna hope I get to play a little more frequently :3

Friday, 20 April 2012

  • Goals Update

    I'll try to be more consistent in sharing my ideas :) .. First they need to get out of my head and onto paper or photo or something! Turn them into action!

    So.. when I get home today, or tomorrow morning, the first thing I will do is take pictures of my lovely seedlings. The most obvious ones so far are tomato plants (because I forgot what I planted in the other slots haha). The basil is also growing, but not quite as fast. There's a shorter seedling growing out that's either a pepper or cucumber plant... I THINK pepper since I think I would have recognized a cucumber plant since I've planted it before.I had a nightmare last night / this morning actually about how all my seedlings died because I forgot to water them :'( This is really my fault because truth is I forgot to water them for two days in a row and last night, they were starting to get extremely wilty when I got home. Gave them some water ASAP, and just hoped they'll still be alive this morning 

    The nightmare was that they didn't survive. Thankfully when I checked this morning, they were coming back up XD ::whew:: I just hate that smooshy/wilty feeling plants have when they're starting to dryout and die. Now they're getting more solid and fuzzy again :) 

    Yup. Goal #1 - Seedling pictures to be up soon!

Monday, 16 April 2012

  • Step it up

    I need to really step it up ><" Being too slow, not hard working enough, not ending my undergrad/bachelor years with a bang :P I feel like I'm giving a bad impression of myself to people that used to know me as a good worker/student ><" Can't keep disappointing people! Need to clear my mind and get back in the game! 

Tuesday, 10 April 2012

  • Goals

    I really want to get a new hand-held digital camera. Using the DSLR is great because I can learn more about manually taking photos, and I have better control over the end results, but carrying it along with my laptop and books for school is just too much for me sometimes. There'd be times when I realize how free I can actually feel without my gigantic rock of a bookbag! 

    Aiming at the Canon s95 at the moment. Maybe I'll save up and buy it for my own graduation + first job present :D Hahaha hope it goes well! 

    And having a new camera, I should really also follow up more with my photography/writing habits. I really think I have so many ideas bottled up inside me that I never bring out! So many new places I've tried, new places I've went to, and new recipes I've cooked went away without me documenting and sharing. Also, drawings! I'm still doodling little storylines on my notes... :) I posted a couple on Tumblr before and was encouraged to continue by some friends. I just never, like the other stuff, followed up with it.

    Karyn's slowly starting her skin-products/jewelry business :) She's selling some products already, but she just doesn't get motivated enough to be doing it every day. I think she's nervous about the amount of time and money she'd have to invest for an unknown amount of returned revenue/interest from people ><" Which is, normal... That's the number 1 concern for any type of business, afterall. 

    :D I really support her though! It'll be so awesome to be able to have your own line or little online store even and sell things that you create yourself. 
    I always listen to any of her concerns about it, and try to give advice. I even offered to photograph her products with her XD Hehehe. I'd actually be very interested in doing so because I love taking pictures. Just hope she knew I was serious when I said it x_x" 

Monday, 09 April 2012

  • I must...

    加油! 加油!

    C'mon Carmen. Bring out that strong super miss independent inside of you!!

    You are capable of taking care of yourself plus doing housework and cleaning up sometimes after Tom already!You can finish these things off easily in the next month. Think back to HS's senior year :) Of course, exhibition wasn't  great either, but you actually like this thesis project! Give it your best shot :) And any option you have for the next couple of years are all laid out in front of you. All you need to do is apply. Don't spend so much time worrying about choosing wrong, because after each choice, is a bright future (a satisfying one for sure at least). 

    :))

    Go go go go go~

    You guys too :) Don't worry about the rights and wrongs. Apply to anything that comes your way, and work from there :) Even when things don't work out in the beginning, there'll always be other options to choose from. Just don't beat yourself up. If something isn't to your liking, try to change it to your liking. Maybe pick up some new interests. Always continue learning :3.

    Good luck, everyone. And most of all, me XD

    加油! 加油! 加油! 加油!

Friday, 06 April 2012

  • :') I love my coworkers!

    Both from Dolphin and from OSDA. Not only have I NOT met any coworker/supervisor who's mean/nasty as shows portray, but I can honestly consider everyone that I work with to be a great friend. T_T I can actually get teary from talking about how thankful I am to be working for/with them because they are so so nice. They are nice even when I have slips/trips (like being late, or forgetting to do something). 

    And since they all know that I need money, my cousin's a new immigrant and needs a job, or I need a job after graduation, they don't hesitate to give me feedback, or give me links to job opportunities or events for networking. ~Sigh what more can you really ask for when you want a perfect working environment?? 

    Now instead of worrying about not having a job, I am worrying about which path I should choose! The easy/safe way of applying to FT office positions?? Or the hard/no money way of internships and part time/seasonal jobs related to my major?? 

    ahh! 

    They are SO AWESOME. :')
    I will miss OSDA especially since I won't be able to work with them when I graduate. 
    I really would hope I can keep in constant contact with them. 

Thursday, 22 March 2012

  • Hotheaded?

    Sometimes I feel like I'm a pretty hot headed person. When something doesn't go my way or pace, I'll be noticeably more rude. When a person get on my nerves, I won't even bother being nice to them. Depending on who, I'll try to contain myself more because sometimes I know that it's just a moment in time and that I'll think differently once I calm down, but to most people, I don't really give a damn. 

    @@" Kind of a bad habit almost because when things don't go the right way with the same group of people over and over again, and I have to explain things over and over again, my anger/frustration just builds up more and more :P The more I let myself get mad, the more mad I get @@

    Agghh. 

    I seriously should just make myself run two circles around the block every time I get mad. Haha. Instant weight loss!! 

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  • xostar
    =) hellooo love!
    • Posted 11/20/2009 1:37 PM
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    @swtiicarmeecaramelx - I dunno. I'm here though lols =D haha
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    @xostar - ehh ;P even writers get their tea time breaks. LOL XD why don't I see YOUR orange thingei ;c
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    @swtiicarmeecaramelx - I see the orange thingy that said you're on xanga lols XD I meant like a while ago =] bc you were on xanga a lot less
    • Posted 2/18/2009 7:36 PM
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    @xostar - ?? but I'm right here x_x" lols
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    ^_^ carmee<3 I miss you on xanga...
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    hey carmen!!
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